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Thankyou.Pleasecontinue.
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Nowondermyanxietylevelskeeprising.
ThegoodnewsisthatsinceIhavehealthinsuranceagain,Icantakemymedication.But,eventhoughIhaveaccesstoservicesliketherapy,theco-paysaretoohighformetoaffordevenwithinsurance.